After reflecting on this post, I wanted a place where I could talk through who I am, what I want, how I perceive myself to be. Since I’ve never really fully explored those things (and, yes, I realize that makes me sound like a wackadoo).
A while ago I’d started a journal where I’d just jot down one word or a phrase that captured how I was feeling about myself that day. I’m going to resurrect that here and add to it from time to time. Sort of like a compendium of Facebook status updates.
What’s most important though, is that no one word or phrase defines me – or you, for that matter. We are all the sum of our various and sundry parts. So even if one day I write that I am evil (and, dude, I totally can be), I know that it is not the entirety of who or what I am. Just like that I’m fat. It’s a descriptor, sure, but it’s not all I am.
I am …
a woman
a good wife
a crappy wife
a tolerant daughter
a good friend
a bad friend
loved
contemplative
not sociable by nature
cautious
a worrier
compassionate
a procrastinator
optimistic
smart
funny
self-conscious
a great employee
a crappy employee
manipulative
calculating
wistful
a planner
charitable
inspirational
selfish
hindered
experimental
I like…
my home
my cat
fage 0% fat yogurt with honey on top
feeling needed
feeling bright
hearing my husband tell me I’m cute
grey days that makes green leaves just *pop*
earth tones
pullover sweaters
crab rangoon
chocolate
burt’s bees lip balm (regular, not any of that flavored crap)
cardamom cinnamon tea
autumn color
birds fighting over my bird feeder
pineapple
stone houses