Ugh. I can’t believe I’m putting this out to the Interwebs. Oy.
So, if you’ve been with me for a while, you may recall my “traumatized” post about being filmed at a presentation class. And then watching the DVD.
It’s taken me this long to go back to it. And I’m no less horrified. That said, I wanted to capture it and put it out there. It’s important to really understand the scope of this journey – I need to see “me” as others see me. And I figured that you might want to see the Fat Girl I’m trying to exorcise.
This is me…”before” (and yes, I swirlied my face for a bit of privacy)
I’m not naked but I feel like I am. It’s hard. Be kind. 🙂
But here is the weirdest part for me. I do not identify with these images. I know these are my pictures but they don’t feel like me. When I was working to capture the screen shot from the video, I became somewhat detached. I tried to catch “her” front view or “that girl’s” side view. Disconnected. I don’t know if that’s good or bad?